There is a secret I happen to stumble upon in this game of life. Many people know it, but choose to ignore it. Some live by this secret. I am not saying I have cracked the code to a happy life because my truth is that I’m not happy every day. However, I am learning to be satisfied.
I always aim to do my best at everything, especially at work. It’s the one thing I wanted to have in life that I waited for since childhood. I wanted to have a career. I have always believed that love will come no matter what, and it did. But a career is built and achieved. And so I had to have it.
The thing is, it’s never as easy as choosing a career and it’ll be yours. Some, like myself, have to gain experience and show up before getting on top. Or simply before I could even start my own. Also, I am the kind of person that needs reassurance before I gain any confidence. All that and my high expectations of myself. So in the end I always seem to be impatient with life and disappointment always seems to follow. Before I know it, I am feeling down about myself. Not the best way to live my life right.
A few stories ago I wrote about our inner child. As I was writing it, I could feel myself living those words. I feel my older persona reach out and grab a hold of my younger persona, the one that was isolated in a corner of my core. A quiet child, but neglected nonetheless. I felt both personas coming together and learning about each other and somehow the younger self-taught my older self to worry less and let go. My outer being somehow relaxed a little bit and started to find satisfaction in the daily chaos of life.
Perhaps not everyone is like me with a neglected part of myself. But in life, I think we all just need to learn to understand who we are. It’s not always a big event like quitting a job or traveling out of your hometown. Sometimes it’s as simple as looking deep inside and asking ourselves, are we whole or have we neglected a part of ourselves. By finding a part of us that was broken, I think we can start to put things together and learn to be at peace with life, even when chaos and stress seem to fill our days.
